Thursday, December 02, 2004

Another Typhoon

We've got another typhoon coming in. It's a late comer being the 20th for the year, and just fits the average number of storms for any given year. But this would be the strongest for the year. Good thing it's coming in during December with the prevailing winds being from the Northwest. If it came in during the regular rainy season monsoon, it would have been a stronger storm.

Typhoon Yoyong Posted by Hello


The last typhoon had me waking up in bed with the waters seeping in from the walls. I had to go to work early in short pants, waded the flooded streets and changed clothing at the office. This time around, I'm on my day off. That storm practically ended the Christmas season for a lot of tiangge shops at the Riverside Christmas Tiangge. At it's highest level, the Marikina river covered the tops of the shop tents.

--andoy, 2 December 2004


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"Despair"

My friend is going to attend a Comics Convention as "Despair" (from Neil Gaiman’s “Sandman”). As she described the character, Despair is a fat naked lady with tattoos who has mirrors, and when somebody despondent or feeling low is looking at the mirror that person would see Despair instead looking back. Since the costume guidelines are strict about nudity, she’d most probably be wearing a bodysuit with tattoos.

In my experience, Despair can be considered a funny character. Someone who appears only if the person is in a funk. Definitely not a fair-weather friend, but maybe not even a real friend.

In a way, I was like Despair to some of my friends. When they are at an emotional low, I have been known to suddenly appear. Not that they see me only when they are despondent. But maybe, I was just lucky and was there when they needed somebody to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on. Or maybe I was always there and they just remembered I was there only when they needed me. Like Despair, there have been a lot of times I was the person “they saw in the mirror.”

I have not been in that situation for a long time. That job is for young people with time on their hands. I have not had the opportunity to be with my friends for a long, long time. Although I have been making some sort of effort lately to touch base with them.

I can understand Despair. I don’t feed on such emotions. I do not exist because friends need me when they are emotionally low. I am not a battery charger who listens and recharges the speaker. Neither am I a handkerchief wiping away tears, although they are sometimes prompted to cry when I am beside them. Maybe I caused the tears the fall. Maybe they feel brave enough to trust me with their tears. I am not a mirror echoing their needs and their wants. Nor am I a mirror showing who they are at their lowest point. I am not a repository of lost longings.

I have been a friend as I still am a friend who was there when my friends needed to cry and not be ashamed of crying. Whether in a crowded restaurant, an empty donut shop, a coffee bar, under a tree past midnight, commuting in a jeep or hugging and crying on the sidewalk of EDSA, or in the middle of a corridor of a busy office, I have seen friends cry. It is not something I particularly like, but it happens that I was there when they needed to cry. I have learned through the years to be stoic about this and their needs. I may not have always been sympathetic to their issues, but I have been empathic. Admittedly, it is tiring. There were days when I feel diminished because I could not help. Neither could I give any advice. I can only listen. I could only appear as a presence. And maybe, I would be remembered as “someone who was there when needed.”

For a long time, none of these happened to me. I was alone. I was happy because my friends were happy. Life still had its ups and downs, for them as for me. But I was happy because there was no need to “be there.” Nobody sought me out. And I did not need to seek out anyone.

I think the cycle is complete. It has run its course, and I am back as Despair. The listener “who was there.” I am not complaining. Just part of being a friend, I guess.

--andoy, 2 December 2004

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Halik Sa Noo

Halik Sa Noo

Papa-alis na ako nang kita’y hinalikan sa noo
Tanging alay sa ating bagong pagkakakilala
Halik na nagpaparatig ng pag-iingat sa paghihiwalay
Labi na haplos sa saloobing basà ng magkaka-dugo
Magka-dugong turing nga
Hindi lamang magkaibigang noon lang nagkakilala
Ngunit magkapatid, mag-anak
At kasama sa salinlahi ng adhikain

Nakikita kita na lumalabay-labay sa aking noon ay pasyalan
Wari ko ay napag-iwanan at napaglakihan ko na itong kapirasong mundong ito
Aaminin ko na hija
Hindi pala
Lagi at lagi na lang na nanunumbalik sa akin
Ang landas na ito na aking natahak na
At natatago ng malalim nitong matagal na panahon
Pareho tayo ng tulak ng puso
Ukol sa malawak na pirasong lupang ito
Itong sangkalawakan ng mga kataga at salita
Na ngayon mo pa lamang natutuktok
Habang ako naman ay nagpapanumbalik

Sa pagdaplis sa iyong noo
Aking pag-sang ayon sa iyong
Isip maglayag at kumawala ng walang takot
Sa mundo ng pahiwatig kuro at himig

Ang pagdampi ng labi ko sa noo mo
Pagsang-ayon ng pareho nating ibig

--andoy.2004.12.02

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Monday, November 29, 2004

Pre-Deluge

Last week was a whirlwind which I wish never happens again. Four people in the team had to file leaves -- one each. Tonette was absent Wednesday shift. Unfortunately, during Wednesdays Tatum has a 10pm to 7am shift. I was alone with my trainee for the remainder of that shift. Thursday shift was Tatum's turn to file leave. Good thing it was Thanksgiving Day in the US and not too many callers. Friday, it was Art who was MIA. And he did not even have the courtesy to apologize when he came in during the Saturday shift. For the UK line, Cielo was also absent last Friday as she had to go to the airport to fetch her parents.

I am not happy with the way my trainee is turning out. It seems that his training may have turned out to be half-baked. I've been observing his live calls. He can handle the calls with rookie mistakes. Although I have heard comments from the other agents that he is a little slow. Strictly speaking he is not a computer techie. However, as pointed out by some agents, the call scenarios he's been handling are the same problems over and over again and he has not shown significant progress. He took his Final Exam (Verbals) last Thursday evening. He failed to pass that one. He re-took the verbals Friday evening with a higher passing score, and he still flunked. He will be taking his verbal exams again on Wednesday or Thursday, with an even higher passing score. I am losing faith in this guy. If he does not pass, we will be forced to have six-day weeks, until we can get 2 agents.

There is one applicant from a different account. Her papers are on still with her supervisors. There is also another agent from still another account who is very much interested. And he might make up his mind soon. A girl from the same account has also submitted to us her resume. Aside from these, there is a trainee for a technical account who wants to transfer to our group. Which case I told him to flunk his technical training first before applying with us. And, of course, there are the other resumes being submitted for consideration and interview. I hope we can get at least four of them into the team. Just to get a single trainee, we had to interview two other applicants. And afterwards, we also interviewed another, who unfortunately got a thumbs down.

We need warm bodies, with fast minds and a good work attitude. So far, the interviewees failed because of their english language skills. And the trainee that I have right now looks like he's going down the drain because he is having problems with the technical solutions. Just great.

--andoy, 29 November 2004

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Calling Up Old Friends

I called up an old friend of mine last Thanksgiving Day. She was cleaning the house when I called. I should have been jumping with joy upon hearing her voice. In fact, my hands were shaking while I was talking to her. But I was inside the building, just outside of our office, and since it was beside the pantry and the comfort rooms, there were a lot of people walking this way and that.

Thanksgiving in the US is a big thing. It is a four-day weekend. And it is a truly American holiday. Everyone's busy getting home and getting in touch with family. That call I made was a gift to myself and not just to my friend. For a long, long time we were not just friends, but we were family.

I think that it is partly circumstance and partly individual fault of choice that I have not been in touch with my friends all these years. In the Philippines, they're located in Laguna, Ortigas, Makati, Bolinao, and Cebu. There are people in Canada, Oman, New Zealand, and in the United States. I hope to touch base with them through email, and soon.

Thanksgiving Day shift did have some problems, but all in all it was an okay day. It's always a great day if you're able to get to talk to a dear friend. Even if you had a cut call. That's the story of my life, the cut call.

--andoy, 29 November 2004

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Resetting the Template

I changed the layout of the weblog. The new layout will be wider and allows more graphics (or graphic space). I also included the some links.

I saw a hole in the older layout template which prompted me to change to this one. This may be a temporary layout but I'll see what I can change about this.

--andoy, 29 November 2004

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Novel Developments part 2

The novel blog continues. I was not able to meet the 50,000 word target of the National Novel Writing Month but I am continuing the blog. Anyway I tapered off somewhat during November.

But the concept of the blog has been laid down and continues. There are a lot of things I still want to write on the site. And a lot more pictures and poems. I will also be writing about friends and our antics.

This will be a fun site full of nostalgia. A recollection of Los Banos.


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Saturday, November 27, 2004

Rinspeed Splash

A car, speed-boat, and hydrofoil. Runs fast over land or water.

This looks like a great car. Might even turn out to be a classic someday. A two-seater sports car, with 750cc engine, up to 140kph, top speed on land, and 48knots on the water. What's truly great about this is that it runs on Natural Gas!

Very environment-friendly.

--andoy

RINSPEED SPLASH

Rinspeed Splash, hydrofoiling over water. Posted by Hello

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Darwi's Art Project

This is Darwi's study of her latest school project in Art. I'm not sure what it's supposed to be, but it's a montage overlay type. The original work was done and submitted in class. This is something altogether new which used the same methods.

Darwi's project Posted by Hello


--andoy

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Christmas Decorations 2004

It's 37 days to Christmas.  The Christmas tree is ready and lit up and decorated.  More decorations would be put on it during the coming weeks.  The furniture would be rearranged to accomodate this.  Right now it is just to one convenient corner, maybe just a little bit too prominently placed.  The Christmas lights would be put up most probably before December. 

We have not had a decent parol since I can't remember when.  When Tiong Maning was still living with us (several years before he passed away), he'd always create these lovely parols all made from scratch.  There was one he made which was all covered in paper flowers, and then there were those made with thinly cut frills bordering the parol's five points.  It seems these were always made of red cellophane with white papel the japon trim.

Christmas dinner menu would be done by Neng, by default.  The spaghetti would be included, and that would be my job.  Maybe a tropical fruit salad, or some easy-to-make crumble with graham crackers by Irene.  I'm not sure about the chicken or barbecue, I'm letting Neng worry about that.  The jamon, of course, and the quezo de bola (edam cheese).

Years before, we'd always have ambrosia.  Easy enough to do, with sliced bananas, suha and papaya, covered in cream and condensed milk.  We haven't had ambrosia since Lola Ibang passed away.

These Christmas past, we've even had some liquor or wine.  We don't usually drink alcohol.

What I'd be looking forward to is after-Christmas breakfast:  grilled ham and cheese (quezo de bola) sandwich, and (brewed) coffee with liquor.

I'm looking forward to Christmas, and I'm not blinking.  You blink and you suddenly notice you're in the middle of January 2005.

--andoy

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

101 posts and counting

This is the 101st (official) post on this web log. Unofficially, there have been more than 115 but because I had to edit the pictures for the page, those don't count.

What have I learned here? That I am not a "real" obsessive-compulsive, and that I can enjoy myself while doing these posts. From July, to the present, the posts have been almost everything except music files: from rants, poems, live journal entries, to letters, pictures and comments on web pages.

I have not yet reached the 50,000 word mark, having barely breached the 20,000 word count mark. I am in no hurry. I guess this is something I hope to enjoy more in the future. Definitely, more pictures and more poems. I would not be entering old poems here though, only new ones. And maybe I'd be posting poems as they evolve.

I might do something soon about the web-style or template. I don't really think that the template "reflects" me. I need to take the time though, to change that. At the moment, I don't feel like it. And maybe I'm just getting lazy about the layout. It is just a little too dark for me. I only need a little less shade of gray or blue. And some pictures on the sidebars. Maybe add some links to my "favorite" web sites or some friends' web pages or blogs. Any more than that and the page would start to turn gay.

I hope to write more often. And to write longer pieces. I am still rusty. And I can easily find excuses but not the time to write. I hope to make this a habit and a necessary discipline. At some point, I'd be just posting and not worrying about the layout or the pictures. Although I doubt that very much.

Here's looking forward to the next 100.

--andoy

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Space.com: Cosmos 1, First Solar Sail Satellite



With a big aluminum sail (or sails) connected to a satellite, and using the sail to capture the solar wind you can practically go anywhere the wind reaches. For now, just around the earth, but later, this could be a cost-effective way of going around the block -- and back.

This is an idea which NASA has been toying with for the past 30 years and has been featured in Star Trek (The Movie) as well as in Star Wars (Episode 2).

--andoy

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Tuesday, November 09, 2004

A Man and A Woman (rev.1.2)

A Man and A Woman


He was looking at her
blind to the world around
staring and gazing
intent yet soft

likewise she was
with eyes melting
scanning his face
from across the table

did it matter that they were alone
in a restaurant
in the afternoon
with tables clothed in white
dotting the dining area for customers later to come

framed the couple was
by the glass window
where their table nests
and in return
the glass window
frames the world outside
as an urban landscape
which neither notice
as the world whirls
walks bay and passes them
and notice them not

the eyes talk
their silence speaks
they know where they are
and wait in silent anticipation
of what is to come
hands linger speaking language old
speaking words deep
deeper than what words can convey
much deeper than what ears can hear

interminably long the waiter waits
approaches and asks the waiter's question
"What will you have?"

The man understands but does not hear
attention he has for the woman
sitting across the table
also sitting silent and knowing what to ask
hoolding his hands and knowing what she has and needs
the empty spaces between words and other noise
they have covered and breached
the couple
the man and the woman
understand the now
and not care for then and there

the man speaks to the waiter
and orders

"Do you have...


"a room?"

--andoy, 9 November 2004 (Rev. 1.2)

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Novel Developments

I am trying to do some catch up with the novel I am writing on the other blog page (see earlier blogs). Catching up is a lame term. I'm still on the 2,000 word mark, out of 50,000 required and it's now the middle of the second week of the National Novel Writing Month. Ideally, I should be writing 2,000 words a day just so I can cruise somewhat during the last week. At this point, I am not sure if I can even meet 25,000 words! Even 15,000 looks so far away.

So far I've written 23,000-plus words for these two weblogs combined. Though the count does begin from the first weblog entry last July. Most of my log entries on the novel weblog are only about 500 words long. That would take forever to write.

--andoy

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Monday, November 08, 2004

Haiku

Kapeng barako
rhum pilak na binuhos
gising ang bango

--andoy, 8 November 2004

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A Man and A Woman

He was looking at her
blind to the world around
staring and gazing
intent yet soft

likewise she was
with eyes melting
scanning his face
from across the table

did it matter that they were alone
in a restaurant
in the afternoon
with tables clothed in white
dotting the dining area for customers later to come

framed the couple was
by the glass window
where their table nests
and in return
the glass window
frames the world outside
as an urban landscape
which neither notice
as the world whirls
walks bay and passes them
and notice them not

the eyes talk
their silence speaks
they know where they are
and wait in silent anticipation
of what is to come
hands linger speaking language old
speaking words deep
deeper than what words can convey
much deeper than what ears can hear

interminably long the waiter waits
approaches and asks the waiter's question
"What will you have?"

The man understands but does not hear
attention he has for the woman
sitting across the table
also sitting silent and knowing what to ask
hoolding his hands and knowing what she has and needs
the empty spaces between words and other noise
they have covered and breached
the couple
the man and the woman
understand the now
and not care for then and there

the man speaks
asks as an order
"Do you have..."
(a heartbeat pause and a flutter)
"a room?"

--andoy, 8 November 2004

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Sunday, November 07, 2004

Rizal Museum in Fort Santiago

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Located in Fort Santiago is the Jose Rizal Museum. This is an awesome
place. If the Fort has shrunk in any way, it is because the Museum has
grown inside it and has overwhelmed all other historical significance of
the historic Fort. In many ways, the Museum is larger than the Fort.

The Jose Rizal museum is a great piece of work. Portions of it are
minimalist in approach, like a japanese rock garden asking you to
contemplate and even meditate on the item at hand. Rizal's words are
writ large. His language skills are shown in with pride, not in
arrogance, but as a matter of fact. The presentation makes one look
small in comparison. The visitor enters and sees the words on glass and
etched on the walls. In the next room are more quotations, etched in
steel and translated in spanish, french, german and english. Rows and
rows of steel etched with words on both sides. Fronting these steel
columns are the heroes own works of art, sculptures and novels. Moving
outside, are more of his words embellishing the walls.

And in a small viewing room, almost morbid in the dark are more of his
words burning across the walls are these are back lit in yellow. Going
in to this room, you see in an adjoining room is a statue of the artist
writing in the gloomy dark, lit only by an oil lamp. Almost macabre,
there is a chain across the threshold to an anteroom. The statue is
further separated by glass at the doorsill.

The stairs to the second floor also serve as a gallery of paintings
about the man, including a protrait of Obei-san. And on the second
floor landing, there is a small picture of Josephine Bracken.

What few personal items of Jose Rizal are in glass cases in the next
room. Displayed are his trenchcoat, his fencing swords, his vest, and a
bullet embedded bone. And etched are comments by historians about the
man, the legend, and discerning between the two. The exhibits are
minimal and almost zen-like in this room. Airy and light, almost
flighty with quotations from Rizal and historians.

The next room however is an absolute abstraction. The room serves as an
exhibit. The walls shout with his words. "Mi Ultimo Adios" occupies
the whole marble wall. The floor also serves as canvas for his words.
The room itself is not all that large, however, devoid of anything and
serving as an exhibit in itself, it grows in your mind and in recounting
the experience, looking in hindsight almost three-fourths the size of a
basketball court. Or even larger.

Finally outside, are the last exhibit items. Translations of "Mi Ultimo
Adios" in varios languages.

The museum is mind-boggling.

Outside of the building, just across in one of the ruins is his statue
as he was bound and about to start his walk from his cell, to the Luneta
where he would be shot. The life-size statue stands amidst the ruins,
with bars as doors, so the visitor can see how high he stood which is
barely five feet in height. Just outside is an oversized marble marker
looking much larger than the statue. The visitor sees the prisoner that
was Rizal; sees the ruins without any roof and open to the elements; and
sees the steps on the pavement leading outside, and retracing his steps
to his execution. The visitor asks why the steps are small, and he sees
the small man, bound at the elbows and knees. He can walk, but these
would be small steps.

The man presented in the museum are his works, his genius and his
greatness in life. The man shown in the ruins is the prisoner about to
die and his greatness in accepting death for country.

There are other Jose Rizal sites, including his ancestral home and
birthplace at Calamba, Laguna and in Dapitan where he was exiled. And
across Europe, there are various places where Rizal historiacal markers
were installed, Leipzig, Brussels, London, Paris, Barcelona, and Madrid.
I have no idea when I'd be able to visit those (local and foreign) places.

--andoy

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6 November 2004

Roselle at the Manila Zoo. Posted by Hello


Neng and Naomi at the Manila Zoo. Posted by Hello


Roselle and Naomi at home and tired after the field trip. Posted by Hello


still on the parapet, clowning around the statue. Posted by Hello


The kids clowning around one of the statues on the park grounds. Naomi in front, Darwi, Roselle and Kenneth at the back. Posted by Hello


Jose Rizal statue. Posted by Hello


We went to Fort Santiago, yesterday. And I have to ask myself, why
hadn't we taken the time to go there before. This is not the Fort
Santiago we went to during my elementary school field trips. This is a
new modernistic Fort Santiago. More solemn, maybe, and a better park
and museum definitely. There are still maybe a kilometer of footpaths
off-limits, but definitely the improvements during the past 10 years are
worth it.

The group with the Jose Rizal statue in the background. Posted by Hello


The gate to Fort Santiago Posted by Hello


Group picture. Posted by Hello


Mama, Darwi, Roselle and Neng with Naomi Posted by Hello


Doy and Raul. Posted by Hello


Posing on the park grounds. Posted by Hello



It's my niece's birthday tomorrow (Monday, November 8). And instead of
a party or gathering at the house, my sister decided to have a field
trip instead. The original itenerary would have been Rizal Park, Sea
Wall, Manila Zoo, Fort Santiago and Intramuros. The actual route turned
out to be Sea Wall, Manila Zoo and then Fort Santiago. Afterwards on
the way home we had merienda at Sta. Lucia East Mall.

Kenneth with a grounds statue of a pinoy guardia civil. Posted by Hello


Roselle, Kenneth and Lilia on the bridge crossing the moat to the Fort. Posted by Hello


Along the walls of the Fort. Posted by Hello


We were supposed to be taking a picture of the cannon... Posted by Hello


Mama didn't want to walk too much... Posted by Hello


On the parapet overloooking the Pasig River. Posted by Hello


I was working Friday night up to 10:00am, and I caught up with them at
the Manila Zoo. After I had a quick lunch, we left and went to Fort
Santiago. Fort Santiago now looks more like a (touring) park than
before. As a museum, it is more focused now. Gone is Pres. Manuel L.
Quezon's presidential car. It has been shipped to Baler, Quezon, Pres.
Quezon's home town. There are still several areas which can be
reconstructed and made into individual museums. The entrance area (and
park) has been simplified. In the Fort proper, the focus is on Rizal,
his improsonment, and martyrdom. The historical aspects of the Fort
itself dwindles to trivia and thus serve more as backdrop to Rizal.

The first wave walking along the entrance to the Fort. Posted by Hello


Raul, Tatay and Doy Posted by Hello


The second wave... Posted by Hello


We ended the day at home, watching videos. I was too wasted and too
sleepy that my eyebags had eyebags!

Great day though.

--andoy

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Cafe Cubano

Waiter, brewed coffee please
and silver rhum if you have any
no not together
I'll do it myself

Simple pleasures abound
in hot coffee
aroma wafting out
and tickling your palate
with heartwarming charm
body stirring warmth

Sugar spirit
vapors swirling evaporating
mingling with the roasted
slightly acidic exotic flavor
dark beauty dancing like a belly dancer
mesmerizing
langorous yet enlivening
curiously twirling like dervishes tempting
tasting and swinging flavors this way and that

As you sip
it becomes sweetly engrossing
sensations swirling
back and forth and back and forth

Waiter, brewed coffee yes
with rhum and no sugar and no cream

Holding the cup inhaling
the roasted bean silently exploding the sense
as I pour the silver liquid
into the golden brown brew
in anticipation I tingle
I sip slow
I inhale deep
and close my eyes
everytime I taste this
in wonderful disbelief

--andoy.

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Saturday, November 06, 2004

Guitar Strum Lament

sitting alone
in a crowd
strumming a guitar
to The Edge's riffs

a soliloquy soft
amidst a mob shouting for blood

a beau crying for lost love
in silent tears
washed by pouring rain

strumming strumming
singing
and muted howling
about waiting and waiting

beer drowned sorrow
like a shadow in the dark
unnoticed
in a large noisy crowd

--andoy 6 November 2004

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Thursday, November 04, 2004

The Klingon Language

New Canonical Klingon Words From the online Klingon Dictionary. A new language comes into its own.

The New Galactic Phrasebook Again and still again, on the Klingon language, a phrasebook.

--andoy

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DW-WORLD.DE: Klingon Web Page

DW-WORLD.DE

Deutsche Welle German TV has a web-page in Klingon!

--andoy

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Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Undas

Undas, November 1. Tatay and Mama went to Bolinao Friday evening and
arrived there safely before 4:00am. Me, Lilia and the kids went to my
in-laws in Novaliches last Saturday and we'll be there till tomorrow,
Nov. 1. Only Irene, Dong and Raul stayed at home.

Holy Days like these are really for family. And for remembering
family. Although local observance is unlike American Halloween, there
was a point in time when, as Tatay and Mama recall, they did go
trick-or-treating (pinoy style), nangangaluluwa. That was supposedly
when they were still in their teens in Bolinao. They would be in a
group and singing songs in front of houses and others in the gourp
would be chickens or fruit. By candlelight too. Or maybe kerosene
lamps. Crazy.

Local trick-or-treat are sponsored party affairs for kids. Either
these affairs are held within company premises or at the mall. And
kids only. Adults can dress up but not too many costume parties
either.

Here at the office we held our own version of Halloween last Friday.
There was a costume contest and a decor contest, with movies at the
pantry complete with pop corn. This is inline with the
"Americanization" of the agents, of course. Kids also had their own
trick-or-treat. This was held early Friday morning, before the
Thursday night shift ended. About 120 kids were listed. As I was not
on board during the Thursday shift, I was not witness to any mayhem.
But as recounted by one of our agents who brought his son for the
affair, he was able to fill up three plastic pumpkin containers of
goodies.

Last year, there was a guy dressed up as Sadako from the original
Japanese version of "The Ring." He had long hair so he only needed a
white dress. Supergirl (in a mini-skirt) won though. This year a
tall guy with a goattee dressed up in a St. Paul High School uniform.
That was awesome or frightening, depending on your viewpoint. One
whole account or team, maybe, wore pajamas with wizard hats. Another
team was dressed as fairies, with wings. There was an angel with
halo. The usual black costumes. My boss wore an Argentinian gaucho
hat and poncho. I don't know who won though.

So that whole thing ushered in November. October went too fast. I
hardly blinked and it came and went. Next time I blink, it would be
January!

Looking forward to December.

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Monday, November 01, 2004

Slate Magazine: Avoiding the Oil Curse - What Norway can teach Iraq. By Daniel�Gross

Avoiding the Oil Curse - What Norway can teach Iraq. By Daniel�Gross

If only we can do this in the Philippines, where oil revenues (if any) would be put into a trust fund for the future business development, devoid of politics and personal interests.

--andoy

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Old Poems


I am posting my old poems in my other blog:  http://andoynovel.blogspot.com

These are for those which I wrote during the 1980's.  I would not be editing them.  With regards, poems, I've decided to start fresh, creating new ones and just starting to learn how to write again.  I think that what differentiates my writing then and now is the discipline to put pen to paper.  To put in words the ideas and images I want to convey.

This would be fun.

--andoy

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Saturday, October 30, 2004

New Narrative and Old Poems

I'd be including my old poems in the other blog (How's the Carabao). This blog has a narrative about UP Los Banos, and the old poems fit in to this blog.

In the meantime, I'm writing new poems (almost twice a week) and will be posting these in this here weblog.

Just to segregate what I'm doing.

--andoy

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Thursday, October 28, 2004

Rant: Corruption in the Military and Sen. Miriam


The issue of corruption in the military is slowly boiling up to the surface. And in the forefront of the discussion is the avowed crusader against graft and corruption Senator Merriam Defensor-Santiago. Again the Filipino people is given a show of her english language skills (complete with the oft-parodied enunciation she got from who knows where). Her verbal skills are frightening: always trying to put an extra word for emphasis; and with multi-syllabic words, she lazily rolls the last syllable on her tongue. Sometimes, I think she loves the comma, inserting pauses (commas) like she was strewing humps on the road of to our understanding whatever she was saying.

Crazy lady.

With all the talk about the corrupt BIR and corrupt judges, she never, not once uttered a word for or against these people. I wonder if she was an heiress. That would be the only explanation for her extravagant lifestyle, something a former judge like her could not afford on a judge's salary. Then again, her husband did work himself up in the BIR's bureaucratic ladder. On the field, collecting and examing taxes.

Crazy.

--andoy

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Celebrity: Paulina Rubio at the 2004 MTV Latin Video Music Awards

Celebrity

Paulina Rubio of Mexico, burning down the house with her fire engine red lingerie under a see-through dress. Great view from the back, too.

--andoy

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New York Daily News - Daily Dish & Gossip - Buffing her image

New York Daily News - Daily Dish & Gossip - Buffing her image

"The Grudge" in English, with an American cast filmed in the original setting and by the original director.

The original movie was a great scream. The sequel lived up to the first movie. And seems that the newest (American) incarnation also lives up to expectations.

--andoy

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Apple - iPod Photo

Apple - iPod Photo

If you think that the Apple iPod is limited to mp3s, the latest incarnation shows Apple finally flexing its muscles in a niche it controls. I am still asking myself why? Then again, everytime I ask that question, I hear myself asking both: "why not?" and "but why?"

Now if there's only a way for the iPod to connect to a digital camera. Or maybe for the next iPod to have a built-in camera. That would be "DAMN! 60GB and a camera."

--andoy

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Isaac Newton's Gravity - How a major new exhibition gets the scientist wrong. By James Gleick

Isaac Newton's Gravity - How a major new exhibition gets the scientist wrong. By James Gleick

It is not common knowledge that Sir Isaac Newton was still in his early years when he published his greatest works, and almost nothing afterwards. It is almost unknown that he was obsessed with alchemy, in general, and in mercury in particular. To the scientific community this is as near to blasphemy as any.

Oh well. Nobody's perfect.

--andoy

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News: Index Finger Length Reveals WHAT?

News

Research findings on differences between men and women with regards finger length and hormones during fetal growth leading to right-brain/left-brain thinking.

In short, the length of a man's index finger shows his feminine side.

--andoy

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Monday, October 25, 2004

Yahoo! News - Porn Star Hits It Big as Best-Selling Writer

Yahoo! News - Porn Star Hits It Big as Best-Selling Writer

At least she knows how to write. There was once a comment that the reason Filipino men are poor lovers is because they do not read. Maybe I'll try to learn how to read in braille.

--andoy

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MSNBC - Scammers can't pin this one on God

MSNBC - Scammers can't pin this one on God

Two women were convicted of running a religion-laced scam that duped more than 1,000 investors out of nearly $2 million by promising a cut of the late Philippines President Ferdinand Marcos’ fortune.

The story goes to tell that one of the two women, lived in a posh $5,000 a month hotel room since 1999. And that when they got caught, some of the victims, who already paid $1,000 each, still wanted to help them believing that this conviction will not help them get the returns on their investment. The expected returns? $1 million for each $1,000 invested.

--andoy

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Spaghetti at Palitaw

Spaghetti at Palitaw

dalagang filipina
may bandannang tali sa leeg
nang hindi makita ang dibdib
nakatungo salubsob sa mesa
tutok sa tako
habang sasargo

hinto ang laro
ng mga binatang
nanonood naman
sa karatig mesa

mga kalarong babae
nagtatawanan sa bangko
nanonood nangangantiyaw
dibdib na naglulundagan
sa tali ng suot
blusang maigsi
litaw ang mayabang na pusod
at mababang pantalong
kita naman ay kuyukot

isang sargo
isang tira
buslo ang mga bola
isang sablay
sa palit ng manlalaro

saka tutuloy ang laro
ng karatig mesang
mga binata

--andoy

- = 0 = -

"Spaghetti" refers to spaghetti straps;
"Palitaw" refers to the sweet rice cakes with sesame seed and coconut; also refers to "palitaw na pusod" or peeking navel.

--andoy

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Ang Kaharian Ko Buong Pagmamahal Alay Ko Sa Iyo

Ang Kaharian Ko Buong Pagmamahal Alay Ko Sa Iyo

sa buo kong pagmamahal sa iyo
alay ko ng buong puso
ang lahat ng akin ay angkinin mo
pagpapatunay nito
ang hawak mong buong lambing
kaibuturan at kaharian ko
hiling ko lang
na kung mawari ikaw ay magalit
huwag itong panggigilan
at higpitang buong ngitngit
kung saka-sakali at ito ay mangyari
aking mararamdamang
pait at sakit
buong mundo ay makaka-alam

--andoy

- = 0 = -

I'm not sure if I can finish this. As it is, this poem is not yet ready. It still needs a whole lot of revisions. Maybe even an overhaul. Twenty years ago, I would have hammered at it for maybe a week before I got satisfied or gave up. I guess I just don't have the perseverance I had then. Or I had a lot of time on my hands before.

--andoy

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Sunday, October 24, 2004

A Reason to Write

I'm looking at the possibility of writing on a regular basis: poems and web logs. Easy enough to commit, but finding the time is not easy. The point of the exercise is the discipline of writing poems. The need to write is related to the need to communicate in English, to practice writing, and make oneself understandable. With practice, I hope to make my words flow smoothly. I need to develop correct diction.

I now have a regular do-anything (comment, rant, diary, photo, poems, etc.) blog, and a novel-in-progress blog. I'm also a member of an email group of poets. The poems I submit first to my regular blog. Then I forward to the email group. I do need to make it a habit to write what I think. And think about what I write. Creating a focus on why and a definite output in terms of quantity and quality.

--andoy

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(Untitled)

I once went on a trip
to millions-old hills
which rose from under the sea
like hundreds of coconuts bobbing on the waves
But what awed me in fact
was the journey through the trees
under the canopy
where the vehicle we rode rolled onwards
The forest I saw covering the road
with sun filtering down
on brown earth
forest so young
like soldiers standing ground
here to here to there to there
measured distance even to untrained eyes
joy I felt
disconcerting to see
a forest comedy and travesty

--andoy

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Saturday, October 23, 2004

Manong sa Iyong Pamamama-alam

Manong, manong, paano na po
ang araw-araw na aming aagarin
ngayong nauna ka na
at humayo sa tawag ng dapit-hapon

Iwan ninyong pamana
angking talino
kariktang tugtog ng matigas na daliring matagal ng nakalimot ng tipa
mumunting bubung at kapirasong lupa
balitoc na sanlain
at kaisang punlang handog sa kaitaguyod ng lahi

Hay, siya,
humayo na po kayo
nang masaya
matiwasay at magaang ang kalooban
na ang nag-iisang punla
ay narurok sa lupa
mabato man
at sa kainitan man ng araw
ay maaanggian din ng langit
kahit ambon lang ay mababasa din
yayabong din
mabato man ang lupain

Manong, manong
sa inyo na po ang biyaya
ng pahinga dulot ng mga bituin
ng nag-aagaw dilim

Dalhin kayo ng simoy ng hangin
sa landas ng takipsilim

--andoy/2004/October/23

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Mr. Manuel Pilar

I have known Rene Pilar for about 21 years. And from the first we
met, we've argued. There might have been an unwritten agreement that
we would argue and fight and still be friends; that we we agreed to
disagree, again as friends. On and off, for the last two decades
we've met and discussed life. We've seen changes happen, and events
happen to us. Rene is an only child and I've treated him as an equal
and as a brother since we first met.

During that first year of acquaintance, I was introduced to Mr. Manuel
Pilar, Rene's father. A big guy with a gruff voice and a hearty
laugh. He grew up during the days when being from the province was
common enough. He became successful in his own right, as did the rest
of his siblings.

As I see how Rene grew up an only child yet level-headed, I can only
envy how the elder Mr. Pilar raised him. I cannot gather nor fathom
the internal musings of the older gentleman during the last ten years
or so. The only thing I can surmise is that there would have been a
good story to tell about whatever debate he had with himself regarding
his son and his life. Or that he was content with his decisions and
his life and thus would have been grateful that he had a son like
Rene.

I may be biased, being a friend of Rene. But then again, I can only
envy the elder Mr. Pilar for having a son like Rene. I hope that I
can raise my son in the same manner that Rene was raised.

Mr. Manuel Pilar died yesterday. From Rene's description of the
problems, it was a whole lot of complications. To say that he was not
well during the past year is an understatement. He had two cardiac
arrests/strokes during the past two years. That and other prior
health problems and hospitalizations.

Maybe it is a pity that Mr. Manuel Pilar had only one son. But then
again, maybe he saw Rene, was proud and was happy he had one, and that
was it.

As Rene described how his father behaved during last week, I think he
was happy with his life and with his son. And possibly, his last
thoughts were prayers for his son, and a smile for his dearly departed
wife who he would have missed for almost twenty years.

--andoy

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Dona Estrella

Dona Estrella Ybiernas died recently. She was a spritely lady of 100+
years. (One does not discuss a ladies age. And, of coruse, at that
age, doesn't matter if you are by several years on the conservative
side.) A lovely lady with a lively memory and remembered all the
people who mattered. And had a strong opinion about such persons.

Whenever she saw me, she remembered that I once worked for the son of
an old acquaintance, and always repeated that the father was a great
pianist, but "mad and crazy" (her words). She kept updated with the
royalty of Europe, the various families and the love affairs. She
well remembers her trips abroad, and describes the cities, culture,
the people and her trips as if it was just yesterday. And everyday, to
keep her mind occupied, she'd take a ride in the car and go around
Makati, just right after sunset.

I first met her almost fifteen years ago. I never did know her age up
to several years ago when she celebrated her centenary. Frankly, I
didn't really care that she was that age. There were the
celebrations. Two masses at the Assumption College, a grand reunion
at Greenhills, the works.

With advanced age comes a personality. A different personality. Very
different in fact from the one you grew up with. I cannot compare
this world with the one she grew up in. There are few stories which I
heard about her, as narrated by her daughter who happens to be a
family friend. But these stories are not about the war and what she
did then, neither about the pre-war, nor about her life as a Dona in
the province. Rather these are quite modern stories about her health,
hospitalization and her shenanigans with the hospital staff.

I was supposed to go to her wake last night at the Santuario de San
Antonio at Forbes Park. I did not wake up early enough to have time
to commute there before my shift at the Call Center. I think, in a
way, it was providential. Maybe I can have some time to go there
before the interment.

The best I can say is that she might have died in perfect health,
except that old age got in the way. It's even possible that she
"lived as long as she wanted to and wanted to as long as she lived."

-- andoy

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Friday, October 22, 2004

Novel in Progress

Just created a new blog for a novel in progress. I don't know when it will be finished. I doubt if it will be finished. I don't know what the story is.

Exciting isn't it.

The web address is http://andoynovel.blogspot.com

--andoy

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Specialty Coffee's Caffeine Jolt Varies

Specialty Coffee's Caffeine Jolt Varies

Personally, I like to drink Dunkin' donuts coffee more than the specialty coffees from Starbucks. Some Starbucks baristas don't even know when they've burned the coffee.

Figaro over Starbucks. Any day.

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Netscape News: Benefits of tea drinking

Home & Real Estate

Research which shows that tea is a better drink. I don't mind. I take coffee at work and tea at home.

--andoy

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Netscape: Top 10 Superheroes

Celebrity

The article lists the top 10 actors in superhero roles. This one is about Tome Welling as the young Superman in "Smallville." There was a slight mistake, where Superman was tagged as a "Marvel superhero."

"Marvel superhero"? The writer did not do the research or doesn't know his comics. It's DC comics. Same with Batman and the rest of the Justice League.

--andoy

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Forbes.com: Most Expensive Homes In America 2004

Forbes.com: Most Expensive Homes In America 2004

A short article linked to the Netscape website. From Forbes magazine, this is the list of the most expensive homes in America as they are listed on the market.

Really high profile envy.

--andoy

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